Kisses and Coffee

Life's Better on the Porch Have you ever noticed when you're feeling down if you just walk outside and take a deep breath, open up your ears, and take a look around how much better life seems? My youngest daughter Jennifer gave me this hat and every time I pass by it sitting on top of the laundry cart I smile. It reminds me to take a look and a listen to all that our Father has made for us. The Cardinal (or red bird as some say) has the sweetest song he sings to his honey, and the humming birds wings rotate like helicopter blades so fast my pretty decent camera cannot freeze the action. My point is there are so many things we can choose to think on that will lift us up; so why do we sometimes just choose not to think on these things? I personally want My daddy in heaven to build my place on the edge of a cliff on the tallest mountain in paradise. Where do you want to spend eternity? By the seaside, on a lake at the base of the Sawtooth mountains; or for all you Texans well...

I have decided that secrets are like the shrapnel coming from enemy fire to take us out! Let me explain; I had coffee with a friend (well really a sister) and as we were sharing our hearts with one another I began to feel lighter and lighter, burdens were being lifted. And I realize now what was happening. All the things (secrets) that I thought were so terrible, once spoken lost their sting. You see she had experienced some of the same. When we are shut inside our home being a caregiver without any connection to the outside world things start to seem the way they aren't, and then we get hit by the enemy and before we know it we think we are so terrible and that no one else has these thoughts or says these kinds of words..... Well I am here to tell you it is a LIE. In Ecclesiastes Solomon tells us there is nothing new under the sun... So that secret you think is so bad, I encourage you, tell someone and you will see it is "Nothing new under the sun" and it will lose it...

Well I have taken a little detour (and not a fun one in our T-Bird either); more like being on a really fast Harley on a really dangerous road w/treacherous hairpin curves and huge craters.... Well I chose to get off that Harley today and although the adrenalin isn't pumping as fast I can say whew... I'm thankful I made it through and I am still here in My Fathers' arms. I've come to realize every time this happens that I NEED MY GOD so-o-o-o much; every minute of every day, and maybe that is the good in this here trial... So I need to stay focused. Hello Terry FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS; for I serve the God of Jacob. And He says that He knows the way that I take; When he has tested me, I shall come forth as gold. My foot has held fast to His steps; I have kept His way and not turned aside. And even when I do He sends out the troops to bring me, His servant back to safety, a little wounded and weak but safe in His arms. Blessings, Terry Scripture reference: Job:23:10-12

It seems like every day is the same then I realize I'm sinking. I saw the you tube video with Kari Jobe singing "Revelation"in it are scenes from "The Passion" and other clips... soon I am in tears and my hard, and disturbed heart starts to feel more broken. I realize that when I allow every day to be the same old thing it destroys me, and yet it is the same old thing... I have realized if I can just see Jesus when I am helping my husband walk, bathe or whatever else he needs then I can feed my spirit instead of the flesh and I rejoice. For me this is how I can be victorious in this season of surrendering all.

I'm not sure why I had to say goodbye to my dad this past week and how come it hurts so bad, but I know my God cares about my tears and cares about me. And now that my "daddy " is no longer here to talk to on the phone with or to go to Idaho to visit, I feel so alone. I will never be able to sit on his lap again or call him when the Texas Rangers are playing the Seattle Mariners and talk sports or hear those 4 words he ended every phone call with, "I love you sweetie"; but I will see him in eternity and for that I am thankful. Terry

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In the midst of thinking my life is so not normal I find myself full of JOY. I took a little trip to deliver a forgotten diaper bag, a trip to Home Depot, and a jog to Kroger; all in one day and all at separate times and in our T-Bird. I have discovered I love to drive and I really like - FAST- Mike says I scare him. This probably doesn't sound like such an adventurous day unless you know that for a little over 2 mos. I have hardly left my husbands side( he had brain surgery). And just to be in that Thunderbird w/music from the 60's playing and all by myself was a little slice of NORMAL. I love how God gives us just what we need. Blessings, Terry